Saturday, November 1, 2008

OH HE LOVES US

WOW.
the mix blew my mind. i cant even think straight.
everytime i feel like im coming to the point where im like God PLEASE show me what im supposed to do he NEVER fails to show me that hes got it.
for the past two months i went from being at an all time high to slowly getting chunks ripped outta me. it just hit me hard about 2 weeks ago when 2 of the last chunks i had holding me together ripped apart and one of those chunks was my passion was starting to gto down. i still trusted that God knew what he was doing but it was a lack of that feeling. i was just sooo lost feeling.
The mix blew my mind it reminded me that u just cant sell out to feel those short moments of FEELING full because thats just what they are MOMENTS.
& a moment is NOT worth eternity. a moment is such a sudden glimpse in time its there then gone but eternity is FOREVER! i cant even wrap my mind around forever and i dont think we were meant to be able to. just TRY. think about COMPLETE happiness FOREVER there is NO end to it. just think is this short period in time worth it???
you can do all the drugs, drink all the alcohol, have all the sex, and treat people crappy while your here BUT IT DOESNT EVEN FILL YOU! Or you can follow Jesus THE ONLY PERSON WHO LOVES YOU UNCONDITIONALLY, NOW AND FOREVER, THROUGH ALL YOUR BAGGAGE, THROUGH THINGS YOU CANT TELL ANYONE ELSE, WHILE YOURE SINNING AND WHILE YOURE PRAISING. IT NEVER IS ANY MORE OR LESS HE LOVES YOU THE SAME ALL THE TIME AND AS MUCH AS EVERYONE ELSE!!! and then you finally feel fulfilled and totally complete. and its a forever thing.
wow i dont even know what else to say i love this feeling
THANK YOU JESUS for giving me the opportunity to get to the mix and speaking to me right where im at and for providing me with AMAZING leaders that we can talk to and who are struggling and UNDERSTAND! IM SO GRATEFUL!

ps New Wine... killed it!!!! omgsh we have the most amazing praise and worship team
ohh yeah and Justin.... we are soo BLESSED to have such an amazing pastor!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

MIX

WOW tomorrow is the mix 2008!
it came so fast but now the past has gone by really slow because im so impatient
(doesnt help that i dont feel good)
im super pumped and i cant wait.
i thought there was no way i could be more excited then my first time but i was so wrong. this time i KNOW what kind of life change im gonna have again and i get to see 240 other teenagers get changed. im totally trusting God that 50 OR MORE people are gonna sign up and pay by friday.
the only way thats gonna happen is through Jesus soo lets just wait and see what hes gonna do through this ministry.
no matter what its gonna be insane.
ahh im like at a loss of words i just canttt wait.
well i guess i should probably do something school related since im supposed to be doing a project..
just too pumped... and projects... suck the love outta me
:)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

First post!
pretty pumped...
even more pumped about the MIX 08 on friday!!!
ahh i don't really know what to put right now but whatever :)